Here are the dates and numbers:
- I started January 2011 at 204 lbs.
- I started forty days of HCG drops and lost 27 lbs.
- In October 2011 I did another round of HCG drops and lost another 20 lbs.
- March of this year I planned for the last go of HCG drops but only lasted 22 days losing another 13 lbs.
- By April 2012 I reached my goal weight of 145 lbs -well, actually 144 lbs but who's counting.
- 60 lbs in about 15 months.
I think I've done the math correctly (math is not my best). Right. Now that I've got the numbers out of the way let me share with you the skinny of how this journey began.
I had given birth to my fifth and final baby. Six months passed. With hushed tones and a knowing smile, a kind woman stopped me in the hall at church and asked if I was expecting again. I tried to ease her embarrassment with assurances that I wasn't offended - after all I was rather big around the middle.
This happened from time to time but by Christmas things were getting out of hand. Random strangers enquired after due dates. No lie! A few days before the holidays I was asked in a span of 15 minutes, by two different people, in Costco of all places when I was due! I just muttered some drifting date, gave a weary smile and thanked them for the well wishes.
It all came to a head when one afternoon a sweet girl possessing chocolaty brown eyes and infectious dimples asked with all the eloquence of a 5 year old, "Are you having a baby?" To which I replied emphatically, "No I am not." Her brow wrinkled as she inspected my belly and exclaimed, "Oh, you sure eat A LOT!"
I was sucker-punched by her audacity but what could I do but laugh? The child was right (they always are).
So it went - I started an odyssey from obese to oh-mazing! Or at least that was my hope. I had heard success stories about an extreme and controversial diet called HCG. It promised some pretty amazing results so I leaped on board.
My doctor didn't like it. The nurse at the clinic who weighed me weekly for the first 40 days didn't like it either. "There are healthier ways to go about weight loss." I wasn't interested in a long-term solution. I wanted results and I wanted them yesterday. I got them. But I have to tell you, dear reader, I got so much more.
This 15 month journey has been more than just about weight loss - it's been about re-education. I've had to re-learn how to eat, how to cook, how to grocery shop, how to manage my moods and how to exercise - but you've heard all this a thousand times before - I know I have. I guess it took all of a thousand times for it to get through to me.
Like I said, the HCG diet is extreme - 500 calories a day for 40 days. That isn't very much food but the drops kept me from feeling hungry. Truthfully, I never felt hungry, not once. But boy oh boy, did I ever miss tasting things!
I realized just how much of a hobby snacking had become for me. It hit me hard the first week - I chew for something to do. I filled up my time with munching. When I couldn't nibble away my boredom I began to fill my time up, not with food, with books. I think I read a half dozen books in 40 days. It was kind of cool, really, how productive I became in those forty days.
As the weight fell off (daily) and I started to see a waistline I grew in confidence. With each HCG round I changed a little piece of my lifestyle. I took up running. Recipe by recipe I began to change my habits. (I hope to share more about these in other posts - stay tuned!)
I am learning just how nutritionally unaware we are as a society. I am becoming aware of what is in - or rather- what is not in our food. We are refining the nutrients out of our diets. As the nation becomes obese it is starving on a cellular level. This has been most eye opening for me.
I am less worried about what I shouldn't eat and more interested in what I should eat. What is good for me? What will nourish me?
There was a time when I cared only for what would pacify my cravings but now I happily think on those foods which will gratify much more than any measly munchies. Eating has become less of a hobby and more of a nurturing art. Eating has become less about tasting things and more about healing myself.
I started this diet because I wanted to lose weight. I was tired of being overweight. That was how I started this journey but I've ended up traveling a new road to something far more satisfying. I hope to share morsels from time to time...